Okay. I am under the 350 pound mark. Just barely. But I will take it. I am insulin-dependent now and they keep telling me that if I continue to lose weight I can discontinue insulin – I’m in suspended judgment. I know what to do: Follow a lower carb lifestyle that consists of lean protein, […]
I weighed. I am at 351.2 pounds. I am so close to 349 pounds I can taste it. This is what 351 pounds looks like. I’m not ready to attach a face to my body. I’m just not ready. Too much shame I think. I began insulin on Sunday. I felt like I failed. But […]
Am I running out of time? I jumped on the scales this morning and it is not where I want it to be. I wanted it to be more. I’m counting calories. I’m trying to exercise. I wonder if it’s too late for me. I wonder if all of the years of not eating right […]
We all have wants, desires, dreams, goals… Walk. I want the ability to walk my ass all over any place anywhere without pain, limping, hobbling, or fear of falling over. To stand in line for an hour if I have to without burning, pain, or cramping anywhere. To sit in a movie seat comfortably. To […]
….or should I just say fuck it all and accept my fate that I’m going to die fat. I’m not in a great place today. I hate food. I hate everything about it. Oh how I wish I didn’t have to eat. People tell me to pray this away. People tell me to write down […]
YES, I CAN DO THIS 