Goodbye 2018. Hello 2019. And, I wish I could take a shit.

Goodbye 2018. Hello 2019. And I wish I could take a shit. I’m not going to pretend 2018 was fabulous because it wasn’t. So much stress, strife and anxiety as well as loss. Many people around me died that didn’t have to die. One of my closest friends died- I healthy vegetarian, the kindest woman […]

I am THISCLOSE to my first goal

I weighed. I am at 351.2 pounds. I am so close to 349 pounds I can taste it. This is what 351 pounds looks like. I’m not ready to attach a face to my body. I’m just not ready. Too much shame I think. I began insulin on Sunday. I felt like I failed. But […]

Am I running out of time

Am I running out of time? I jumped on the scales this morning and it is not where I want it to be. I wanted it to be more. I’m counting calories. I’m trying to exercise. I wonder if it’s too late for me. I wonder if all of the years of not eating right […]