I made a commitment to be at the pool three days a week with a personal pool trainer. I am terrified about getting into the water again with this fucking goddamn bag. And I suppose it wouldn’t be so bad because it’s now a part of me but I can’t control my output, or anything […]
If anybody can give me some helpful hints about breaking the sugar habit I’m all ears.
What’s the old AA saying: “If you don’t want to slip stay out of slippery places.” For me that would mean don’t eat pretty much anything that’s white: Sugar, flour, rice, milk, ice cream, sour cream, egg nog, pasta. And processed foods. And deep fried foods. Then there’s portion control. I feel hungry all the […]
I’ve been thinking a lot about my dad today. Tomorrow is Father’s Day – and he’s dead. He died on January 20, 2016. This will be the third Father’s Day without him. He didn’t particularly like Father’s Day – or his birthday – or really anything that focused on commemorating him. He just wasn’t that […]
I climbed upon the scale today for yet another doctor. Sigh. I’m officially down 66.2 pounds. My all time high was 374.6. I’m at 308 pounds. I wish I were at 298 pounds. I know. I didn’t put it in over night.
(This was a place holder originally for June 1st) Several times a day I say to myself- “You can do this. Three pounds a week times 52 week is 156 pounds. It’s doable.” I am then motivated for like seven seconds. Fuck. Break it up in five pound increments. That’s like 33 increments of 5 […]
Am I running out of time? I jumped on the scales this morning and it is not where I want it to be. I wanted it to be more. I’m counting calories. I’m trying to exercise. I wonder if it’s too late for me. I wonder if all of the years of not eating right […]