I get these very cool messages from the universe- and this is the one I got today and damn I really needed it. There will always be people in your life, who hold you back, who cost you too much, and who fail to see all you’ve done for them. But, of course, they’re just […]
I don’t normally take photos of strangers and put them on the internet. I was so tempted today. I’m at the doctors office. Sinus infection I think. When I looked up from where I was sitting I saw this Lovely lady who I think about 28 – 30. Her birth year I heard as 86 […]
….or should I just say fuck it all and accept my fate that I’m going to die fat. I’m not in a great place today. I hate food. I hate everything about it. Oh how I wish I didn’t have to eat. People tell me to pray this away. People tell me to write down […]
And I’m still fat. Three years ago? Four? Gosh, maybe 5 years ago I enrolled in Dialetical Behavior Training for compulsive binge over eating. This is cognitive behavioral treatment that was originally developed to treat chronically suicidal individuals diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD) and it is now recognized as the gold standard psychological treatment […]
As I stepped on the scale this morning naked I could feel the groan of the scale beneath my feet. For the record today January 2nd, 2017 I tipped the scale at 365.6 pounds. By my calculations it’s going to take me approximately 24 months to become height and weight appropriate. f u c k.